yeah I know what I was going to say

It's funy, I think I look at my instant messengers or my cell phone about every 15 min. Just looking for someone I want to talk to, while not knowing who I want to talk to. So I just talk to my blog...wow kinda sad when you sit back and think about it. I guess I did it to my self, right? No one made me sit here. No one maybe me play Sim City 4 and get my butt kicked (hey, it was my first time playing and I went on a spending spree...totally not my fault). So I just turn to my blog and my music, got Creed playing now. Maybe I'll take a shower now. There are people that I wouldn't mind talking to, I just don't feel like bugging them. I don't know if they are working / sleeping / haning out with friends or what, seeing as they both work nigh shifts. Ohh scarry movie that I seen wayyyy back in the day was called Night Shift, I think it's a Stephen King movie not too sure though.

I still got more, a lot more, hemingway I could be reading. It just seems like I'd much reather just sit here and type this to who ever reads it. Kinda makes me wonder what I want out of this. What am I going to get out of it? Is someone going to read this and some how make all that ills me go away? yeah, I don't see that happening any time soon. So I guess that leave it up to me. I got to get what I want out of life. NOt like anyone is just going to hand my that head engineer job that I want. I guess nothing like that is going to happen with me sigting on my butt. Though, what's the big deal. not like anyting is open right now, remember the Compusa story...I just keep thinking of everything I want. I know things take time. I just hate wasting time. I don't even like wasting time at work.

lol it's funny. How much I don't really blog about the good things. Well I don't even blog about all that ills me (why do I keep saying "ils me"?)

well I guess I should just call it a night and what ever happens.....happens.