Great walls

So I've been doing something thinking. This may not come to a surprise to some of my friends. Maybe it will. I'll start off with a quote from another blog that I read. Ha, that post is now gone. Funny how that works out. Well, it was just about this guy and the wall he put up.

So, back to me. I guess you could say that I've built a nice lil fortress around my self. I think, from the way I feel about my brother right now, that even my family is on the out side of this wall. I don't open up to new people. I don't open up to friends or family. I say more to this blog than I do to anyone else. I'm sure that will back fire on me some day too. Oh well.

Is it because of these "walls" that I am emotionally dead inside? Or just that I haven't let anyone get close enough? I think it has always been hard for me to open up to people. I guess opening up to some people and never hearing from them again doesn't help. It would seem that my mind set is this: I'm not going to open up to anyone, if they can't deal with that then I guess that is just to bad for them.

So where do I go from here?

Just a family rantin'

I drive 4 hours one way to go help my mom paint the house.
My brother lives there (kinda) paints 3 rooms and gets $300 to go to Washington.

I help my family when I can.
My brother steals from my family when he can.

I don't like stupid people.
My brother is stupid.


I think i'm done with him. The only chance he has, and it's a small one, is to go in the Army by Aug 9th. If he isn't in on the 10th. It's over for a long time.


In the mean time I pay my rent and have $77 to last me 'til the end of the week. Hope I don't have any bills to pay...

So I called Posion Control today

(wo0t btw this is my 500th post)

Back to my story...

So just as I clock out for lunch I get this call from my mom. Then she starts off asking if I took some movies or dvds. I had no idea what she was talking about. I'm used to talking to my mom and I could just tell something was off. She was trying to call my youngest brother, not me. Well she might have taken about 10 Clomipramine and 10 zanex (no idea how to spell it, I don't think that's right). So yeah. That was fun.

Then I thought it would be a good idea to see what posion control had to say about that. Well he said to call 911 and have the paramedics come out. So, I passed that lil note to my dad...

btw: other than being a lil crazy, she's fine.

I must really be one of a kind

We have all heard the commercials on TV from eHarm.com " based on the 29 dimensions of compatibility" blah blah blah...

well this is what I get:

"Our matching system was not able to find any new matches for you right now.

However, we are always automatically searching for new matches for you. Several thousand people join eHarmony each day and our matching system evaluates each one of them within 24 hours to see if they are a great match for you."

Now doesn't that just give you the warm and fuzzy feeling. =)

I truly am one of a kind. =)

Best voice mail in the world!

This was taken a few weeks ago. I called up a friend of mine. Only I got I didn't get to talk to her. I got the voicemail. Well...she did call me back about 10 min later, but that isn't the point.



Thoughts?

p.s. if anyone would like a call like that, just let me know. I got no shame in drunk calling people. =)

as you can tell!

Roommates birthday weekend

Saturday was my roomy's 23rd birthday. Started drinking around 4pm, then moved on to playing a game of flip cup. That was a first time for me. I know we went through at least five 30 packs of miller light. That's just crazy talk. I called it a night around midnight.

good thing is no one got in a fight. Though it did get close. Since when does going to prison and being on parole make you hard core? So then the guy who used to live on this street pull out the parole card, as if to prove it. So my roommate and his brother pull out their S.C.B.A. cards. So, that went no where. But, it did last about an hour.

Well, here are the pictures =)

Why?

Why do I like sitting in my room more than being out with the roomies? They are out there drinking beer, talking, bullshitting. I'm hiding out in my room. Was doing some gaming, not anymore. I do have my music playing. Not even really chatting to anyone.

I got one beer and I'm not even drinkin it. I went to the store and get a pepsi and some ice cream.

I guess it is just one of those moods. I know I like being by my self more than with a group of people. It isn't like I get social anxiety. I just don't like it. Just me and a few other people. Or one hawt chica! ;)

lol it is funny how many times a day I check my e-mail. Even while at work. I get bored to I flip open my phone and check away. It would be grand if my new phone wasn't toasted! Fucker. Such a nice phone too. Oh well.

Maybe I should take up beading :)

Roommates

Does anyone want one, or 7?

I live in a 6 bed room apartment. Right now, counting me, there are 8 people living here. Before I moved down here I was living on my own in a one bedroom house. This is a big change. It isn't bad...I just don't like it. Oh well. I'm kind of stuck here right now.

When I buy something I buy name brand food that I like. I don't mind if roommates eat it, it's going to happen with this many people, but they replace it with whatever they find for the cheap nameless crap.

bah!

I still wonder if I'll get a reply. Just a reply and I can go from there. This one even plays Call Of Duty 2 on XBOX 360. That is wicked awesome!

Y'all remember that silly girl from eHarm

Well I didn't stop talking to her like some of y'all might think after some of the things she has said. Like judging me off of myspace.

I took it up as a challenge to prove her wrong! :P

And I should say it worked. She has said that she was wrong to judge me. That I don't talk like a womanizer. Things like that.

boy - 5
girl - 1

Good night!

Oh but I have a new gal...well that is IF this one sends my a reply.

interspecies erotica

HUmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

nothing really going on. Kind of bored. I don't even really know what to blog about. I've had a few ideas here and there.

It was a good weekend. about 600 miles of driving. lol I'm so stupid. There is this chica, I've blogged about before, so cute and all. Just wasn't ment to be I guess. I see her online and what-not. oh wells.

School

This is what we are doing today. well that and our test on knots

blog from a friends

apartment!

so yeah drinking some beer. Friend is asleep. lol friend will read this to morrow :P

Bye!

I'm going insane

I'm at my grandmama's. No cable. No Broadband. No movies. blah.

So I came back home (I guess you could call it that) to help my mom paint our house. In order to get it rented out.

I only told a few people that I was up here. Well, now a few more will know by reading this ;) (hi hi)

I'm going to try and find some time to have a drink or two with some friends, change the oil in my car and get my hair cut. Sad thing is I know I don't have time to see everyone I want too. Stupid two day weekends.

I know I really haven't posted must these past few days. Nothing really has beeing going to worth putting here. Work is going good. School is going good. I got an 84% or 88% on my final for rigging. Still got to do our crane project and what-not. Nothing to big.

My office

NEWS FLASH!

I fucking rock!


and in other news today. I went for a run again seeing as I didn't go at all last week. I didn't go for the full 7 miles, but I did do some good hard running trying to get my speed up. It was a good day I guess. I just need to stop thinking about money.

I did some studying and I think I'm going to call it a kinda early night.

Until tomorrow!

All the difference in the world!

Ok so I was sitting here in my "hell to the world mood" and then it came to me. The Red Hot Chili Peppers.....they had to go! Geez I like them but come on people, they are soooo over played. Right up there with Guns -N- Roses and Metallica. Then I was reading my brothers myspace (out of all people) and he had a song from The Vandals! I used to rock out to them way back in the day. The Vandals, Catch 22, A.F.I. and Rancid...awww good times.

So I leave you with this these two videos








I Just don't know what video I like more. Both of the songs rock!

What is going to change this mood?

It seems like I've spent this weekend in a

HUmmmm I wonder how many of these lil posts I can make :P

I did find a theme I liked. Only I had to make three posts and blah blah to get it. What crap.

I did by a screwdriver to take my cell phone apart. In order to try and get it working again. No luck. I thought I had it working, but when I put it together still the same junk. Well on the good side when I can buy another one they should be cheaper on eBay.

I'm really feeling a road trip back home right now.

aww fuck! Part 2

Well it seems that I ended up fucking up some of the code here too. Guess it's not a good idea to play around with it at 1am oh well.

Good night.

board -- bored -- wood?

I am soooo bored it iesn't even funny. ohh bored.com

so I thought I'd just stop by here. Maybe I'll look for a new template or something.

Report Card

• Introduction to Comm. Diving -- A
• Physical Asp of Diving -- B

Total GPA so far: 3.31

aww fuck!

So I just pissed away $30.

I don't even feel like telling the whole story.

I cut the mic cord to make it longer. I guess it didn't like being cut as now it doesn't work.

Funk I need more money. Well...want.

The Plan

I am not going to do anything this weekend. Well, unless you count doing nothing as something. Ok so I do have to go to the bank tomorrow and some time I'm going to have to get some food stuff to eat.

and study

and play some computer games

and veg out

Gorski G2000ss

http://www.gorskihat.com/g2000ss.html

This is the dive helmet that I am mostly sure that I want. I want to try it on. Maybe next time there in a expo in town or so.

It isn't cheap at all. MSRP is around $6,000

And now for a bunch of info that none of y'all really care about :P

The G-2000SS is definitely a Millennium helmet, designed to take safe diving into the 21st Century. Its stainless steel, light weight investment-casting makes this helmet a one of a kind, space age technology piece of equipment.

There is nothing else out there that can compare.

Its all-metal construction makes this helmet easy to adapt and attach auxiliary equipment, such as lights, camera, etc.

The front port (window) is made from the strongest machinable "Lexan" material for extra safety. The mounting holes in the port are individually drilled through, allowing the retaining bolts to pass through the window itself, thus reducing the risk of the window separating from the helmet in the event of a hydrogen explosion during underwater cutting operations.

The helmet has a unique retaining system to lock the neck dam in place as well as securing the helmet on the diver's neck.

The 2nd stage demand capability is the best balanced, easiest breathing regulator in the industry today. The POSEIDON CYCLON 5000 has been tested and approved for depths up to 980 feet of seawater. This regulator has been incorporated to fit within the helmet, where it is fully protected at the lower front portion of the nose area, which is an integral part of the helmet shell. This configuration allows for ready adaptation of a gas reclaim valve assembly.

The Gorsky design does not require a side block, which was replaced instead with a free flow valve in line with the 2nd stage regulator.

The back mounted manifold contains a screen/filter to prevent debris from getting into the second stage, and the two check valve assemblies, one for the main supply and the other for the reserve backup air or gas supply. This configuration allows for 5/16 ID tubing connection between the manifold and the 2nd stage regulator to be encapsulated inside the helmet.

The G-2000SS is a perfectly balanced helmet that weighs in at approximately 29 lbs.

The helmet is uncomplicated and of rugged construction which is easy to maintain.

All valves, regulators, parts, etc. are industry standard brand names.

My 4th

Since I know just everyone wants to know just what this groovy kid did for his fourth of July, I'll tell ya!

I went to the beach with my roomies. A part of my just wanted to kick it at the casa and veg out.

I guess over all it was good. Just a very long day. (cool my car has a timing chain and NOT a timing belt)

We left for the beach around 11am (way too late if you ask me.) The first plan was to leave at time (still too late I think for the beach on the 4th of July) Got to the beach about 12:30, it is about a 20 min. drive any other day. We didn't end up leaving 'til about 10:15 or so. Then stopped at In-N-Out. Best fast food hamburger ever! Then came home, took a shower, and went to sleep.

One very long day.

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Boy vs Girl

[23:50] Girl: nothing scary on eharmony... I guess all my judgements were based on your myspace profile, lol

ahh that's just great.


Oh well, not like anything would have worked out anyways. But damn.


BTW: airheads are the best candy ever! It even wasn't that bad of a movie.

[23:59] Girl: So, do you want to know the list of what's wrong with your myspace, lol
[23:59] Girl: At least to me
[23:59] Chucky_5150: sure
[23:59] Girl: :P
[23:59] Chucky_5150: I'm sure it's a lot :P
[00:00] Girl: well, I did say the list
[00:00] Girl: Background for one
[00:00] Chucky_5150: :)
[00:00] Chucky_5150: yeah
[00:00] Girl: lol
[00:00] Chucky_5150: hooters chick
[00:00] Chucky_5150: for 2
[00:00] Girl: yep
[00:00] Chucky_5150: aww come on ;)
[00:00] Girl: multiple pics of you drinking
[00:01] Chucky_5150: it was my birthday
[00:01] Girl: I was going to say the hooters chick too, lol
[00:01] Chucky_5150: but I knew that too
[00:01] Girl: yeah, but that was my first impression... how was I to know it was only a once a year type of thing
[00:01] Chucky_5150: eh
[00:02] Girl: And that still doesn't erase the background either
[00:02] Girl: :P
[00:02] Chucky_5150: :)
[00:02] Girl: And the majority of all your "friends" on myspace seem to be girls
[00:02] Girl: I think that's the end of my list
[00:03] Chucky_5150: well, to each their own

Awww good stuff

My weekend

Well folks. I took it easy this weekend. I did end up having dinner at California Pizza Kitchen. That was good.

I meet my friends, oh it was nice to see some faces from back home, in the area of the anime expo. There were some cuties walking around. I don't think I've ever seen so much blue / pink / green hair. One of these days I'll have to go to something like that. After talking to them it was a good idea that I didn't. I would have spent $30, wait in line for a few hours just to get in, and just more fun stuff like that.

I also got my old cell phone in the mail. So y'all can all text me again =)

Oh yeah I had the worst of luck at that dinner. I ended up forgetting my wallet! First time that has happened. Good thing I had enough money for my parking. Geez. So I owe dinner when I go back home :)

Mmmmmm Cool Hand Luke's. I can't wait.