Great walls

So I've been doing something thinking. This may not come to a surprise to some of my friends. Maybe it will. I'll start off with a quote from another blog that I read. Ha, that post is now gone. Funny how that works out. Well, it was just about this guy and the wall he put up.

So, back to me. I guess you could say that I've built a nice lil fortress around my self. I think, from the way I feel about my brother right now, that even my family is on the out side of this wall. I don't open up to new people. I don't open up to friends or family. I say more to this blog than I do to anyone else. I'm sure that will back fire on me some day too. Oh well.

Is it because of these "walls" that I am emotionally dead inside? Or just that I haven't let anyone get close enough? I think it has always been hard for me to open up to people. I guess opening up to some people and never hearing from them again doesn't help. It would seem that my mind set is this: I'm not going to open up to anyone, if they can't deal with that then I guess that is just to bad for them.

So where do I go from here?

Just a family rantin'

I drive 4 hours one way to go help my mom paint the house.
My brother lives there (kinda) paints 3 rooms and gets $300 to go to Washington.

I help my family when I can.
My brother steals from my family when he can.

I don't like stupid people.
My brother is stupid.


I think i'm done with him. The only chance he has, and it's a small one, is to go in the Army by Aug 9th. If he isn't in on the 10th. It's over for a long time.


In the mean time I pay my rent and have $77 to last me 'til the end of the week. Hope I don't have any bills to pay...

So I called Posion Control today

(wo0t btw this is my 500th post)

Back to my story...

So just as I clock out for lunch I get this call from my mom. Then she starts off asking if I took some movies or dvds. I had no idea what she was talking about. I'm used to talking to my mom and I could just tell something was off. She was trying to call my youngest brother, not me. Well she might have taken about 10 Clomipramine and 10 zanex (no idea how to spell it, I don't think that's right). So yeah. That was fun.

Then I thought it would be a good idea to see what posion control had to say about that. Well he said to call 911 and have the paramedics come out. So, I passed that lil note to my dad...

btw: other than being a lil crazy, she's fine.

I must really be one of a kind

We have all heard the commercials on TV from eHarm.com " based on the 29 dimensions of compatibility" blah blah blah...

well this is what I get:

"Our matching system was not able to find any new matches for you right now.

However, we are always automatically searching for new matches for you. Several thousand people join eHarmony each day and our matching system evaluates each one of them within 24 hours to see if they are a great match for you."

Now doesn't that just give you the warm and fuzzy feeling. =)

I truly am one of a kind. =)

Best voice mail in the world!

This was taken a few weeks ago. I called up a friend of mine. Only I got I didn't get to talk to her. I got the voicemail. Well...she did call me back about 10 min later, but that isn't the point.



Thoughts?

p.s. if anyone would like a call like that, just let me know. I got no shame in drunk calling people. =)

as you can tell!

Roommates birthday weekend

Saturday was my roomy's 23rd birthday. Started drinking around 4pm, then moved on to playing a game of flip cup. That was a first time for me. I know we went through at least five 30 packs of miller light. That's just crazy talk. I called it a night around midnight.

good thing is no one got in a fight. Though it did get close. Since when does going to prison and being on parole make you hard core? So then the guy who used to live on this street pull out the parole card, as if to prove it. So my roommate and his brother pull out their S.C.B.A. cards. So, that went no where. But, it did last about an hour.

Well, here are the pictures =)

Why?

Why do I like sitting in my room more than being out with the roomies? They are out there drinking beer, talking, bullshitting. I'm hiding out in my room. Was doing some gaming, not anymore. I do have my music playing. Not even really chatting to anyone.

I got one beer and I'm not even drinkin it. I went to the store and get a pepsi and some ice cream.

I guess it is just one of those moods. I know I like being by my self more than with a group of people. It isn't like I get social anxiety. I just don't like it. Just me and a few other people. Or one hawt chica! ;)

lol it is funny how many times a day I check my e-mail. Even while at work. I get bored to I flip open my phone and check away. It would be grand if my new phone wasn't toasted! Fucker. Such a nice phone too. Oh well.

Maybe I should take up beading :)

Roommates

Does anyone want one, or 7?

I live in a 6 bed room apartment. Right now, counting me, there are 8 people living here. Before I moved down here I was living on my own in a one bedroom house. This is a big change. It isn't bad...I just don't like it. Oh well. I'm kind of stuck here right now.

When I buy something I buy name brand food that I like. I don't mind if roommates eat it, it's going to happen with this many people, but they replace it with whatever they find for the cheap nameless crap.

bah!

I still wonder if I'll get a reply. Just a reply and I can go from there. This one even plays Call Of Duty 2 on XBOX 360. That is wicked awesome!

Y'all remember that silly girl from eHarm

Well I didn't stop talking to her like some of y'all might think after some of the things she has said. Like judging me off of myspace.

I took it up as a challenge to prove her wrong! :P

And I should say it worked. She has said that she was wrong to judge me. That I don't talk like a womanizer. Things like that.

boy - 5
girl - 1

Good night!

Oh but I have a new gal...well that is IF this one sends my a reply.

interspecies erotica

HUmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

nothing really going on. Kind of bored. I don't even really know what to blog about. I've had a few ideas here and there.

It was a good weekend. about 600 miles of driving. lol I'm so stupid. There is this chica, I've blogged about before, so cute and all. Just wasn't ment to be I guess. I see her online and what-not. oh wells.