Letter to her

I wish I would have opened my eyes sooner.
I wish we could still talk.
It was my fault.
I wish I could have googled ____ three months before I did.
I wish you were still here.
I wish you didn't think I was a monster.
I wish I could have your support.
I wish you could help me
I wish I didn't fuck things up.
I know the moment where it all fell apart.
I should have known something was wrong with me right then and there.
I should have asked for help sooner.
I want to tell you all this.
I wish I didn't have to deal with this.
I am going to get my life back on track.
I hope you can be a part of that.
I tried to give you 100% of who I am.
I am sorry.