i need to

blog more. these little ones from my cell phone just don't seem to cut it. i need to blog from everything from dinner with my brother and his family to cutting metal under water with fire.

see that's just too much for my lil ol cell. but it sure is better than working. 8-)

Called in sick today...

in order to go to the boat races early =)

That means that I am also going to miss out on my welding class tomorrow. Well I wouldn't say miss.

My tooth is doing a lot better, that's good. Still hurts to eat sometimes.

Oh well....shower time

Well I didn't make it to class

I had planned on going to class in the afternoon. Only I don't think it is a good idea after everything I took last night trying to make the pain go away.

So I did go to the dentist this morning after one of the worst nights sleep ever. With the 4 Tylenol PMs that I took I was tired but the pain made it almost impossible to sleep. So with all the pills that I popped and the lack of sleep and the pain in my mouth. I didn't make it to school today.

I've spent most of the day laying down watching TV. I think I watched 5 episodes of Heroes. Soon to be two more.

My whole body seems to just hurt. Like if I got in a fight or something last night.

I am hungry. I just don't feel like eating. Lets see how work goes tomorrow. My guess is that it's going to suck.

holy fucking shit!

I can't believe how much this fucking hurts. I can't even sleep.

I've taken 4 tylenol PMs and countless Motrins. I can't fucking sleep. Just want to yell out fuck. but can't

holy shit. fuck. mother fuckcing shit! damnit. I was a sleep for an hour or two then woke up this this sharp pain. I have no more tylenol PMs to take. my damn broken wrist didn't even hurt this much. This is like some sharp pain that someone keeps poking at. and I got nothing to do to make me feel better.

fucking shit. kjdlf;as;oifjaodifgjadgajdf
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FUCK.

It can't hurt more than this is I just fucking pull it out my self. fucking damnit. thst sounds like such a good idea right now too...

I want to blog about my weekend.

****Warning: Strong Language****

Ok, I really want to post about something good. My weekend was great! My brother came back from Qatar on Friday night. Only my fucking tooth is killin me again. And it's my dumb ass fault. If I would have mailed that insurance form off back when I gotten it, I would have insurance by now. But, nope. fufck! So, now I am going to miss half a day of school tomorrow in order to go to the dentist. I hope to just miss half a day. I don't even want to think about what would happen if I miss a full day. But, if it hurts so much that it is hard to drive. I really don't think...fuck!...that I need to be diving. fuck fuck fuck!!!

Ok, so I took my tylenol pm. That should help me sleep...I hope. I don't want to know how many motrin / tylenols I've taken today. This is the first day it isn't helping. and holy fuck is it not helping. fuck!!!!

son of a bitch my fucking tooth hurts. fuck!
FUCK.

20th Anniversary of Appetite For Destruction

With: ADLERS APPETITE / BANG TANGO / Mad Temple / The Haunting / Tyranis / The Remedy
They are all 80s cover bands.

Ok, last night was a fucking kick ass time. It was kinda of a last minute deal. Well one of my roomies was already going and I just got asked to go. Seeing that I didn't have any plans for last night, we all know what happened to those. I went.

Fuck! Drinks cost a lot of money though. Just about $10 (with tip) for my White Russian.

We didn't get back to our apartment until sometime after 2:30 am. I passed out as soon as I hit my bed. Then at 7:00 my alarm was going off. Because, I have my welding class on Saturdays. Yes, I did end up going. That was good. I also ended up going to my car and take a 30 min nap :) it was much needed after a night like that.

In fact I think I spent more time not welding than I did welding.

Mad Temple was cool.

I think ADLERS APPETITE was the Guns -N- Roses cover band. That is what the night ended with.

Oh and there was this hot chick there....yeah it was fun =)

In my next life I want to be in a band for the umm.....bonuses...

Yes, I will be back. I think on Dec. 29th (well sometime in Dec.) Cheap Trick will be there. Fuck $78 on ticket master. Humm....

Today was better

Well this morning sucked. I just didn't want to get out of bed.

There is just something about jumping into the cold harbor water at 7:30am that wakes you up better than a cup of coffee ever could.

I guess I am doing better today. Roomie cooked up some food. I washed all the salt water off of me. So, now what?

Knives are sharp.

It would be great to have some to waste my time with. Well...at least I have my blog.

Fuck.

I do not feel like going to school tomorrow. I do not feel like having to put my wet suit on. I do not feel like spending all day in my wet suit. I just don't want to go. I even went to sleep early last night. I got about 10 hours. I know I needed that. I really don't want to wake up early.

Guess it's a good thing.

That I didn't blog about my plans for Friday night and going to Knotts Scary Farm. Because it's not going to happen.

Oh well. At least now I get so save a few bucks.

Did I want to go, yeah. I also know that she does need to get work done to her car. I know if she doesn't get it fixed, then it will only cost more to fix down the road. Hell, she could break down along the side of the highway. That would be bad. So I don't blame her.

It's been about 17 years since the last time I was at Knotts Berry farm. I only remember one ride there. I really wanted to go. Even had a co-worker who was going to be there.

That's life.

Maybe I'll just drink beer at my apartment and download porn :P
It's cheaper anyways.

I am not feeling school tomorrow...

I wonder

• What I would be doing if I was still in the Military.
• If I didn't start this school
• If I'm losing more friends than I'm making
• Why I post more here than talk to people
• How much someone really would know me if they read all 550+ posts
• Why do I blog so much
• Why am I making a damn list (oh yeah....just a brain dumb)
• If things that don't kill you, really do make you stronger.
• what puts me in this kind of mood.
  
• Why does it feel like I have no one to talk to, but at the same time don't want to talk to anyone. I guess if I was talking to people I wouldn't be typing this.
  

I would like to be able and take a step back and read my blog as someone else. Just to see what I sound like. What kind of person I come across as when you don't even know who / what I am.

Why does it seem like there isn't enough time in the day, but I sit here and do..well..not a whole lot when I get home. "Home is where you make it." Well, I'm not sure I would call THIS home. Long beach sucks. I pretty much moved from one getto to another. Maybe that's why I spend so much time on my computer. I can pretend I am some place else.

I've also started watching Heroes. Good show.

I guess this is enough.